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Anonymous asked:

If it is you making the suicide posts, and all evidence says it is, please stop. You can be tracked through your IP, help will come. People care about you and want you to be happy and healthy. Think of the people who love you that you'll hurt.

kandriaaywas:

Funny how people pegged me with this.

It wasn’t me, I regret anyone thinking it was, and I apologize (Though they’ll likely never see it) to anyone woken up last night by the police.

I WAS visited also, but the conversation I had with the officer was short. They where in contact with a friend of mine, and while I was visibly upset, she was on the phone with him and he deemed me “okay” and let me go back to bed.

However he did not mention a thing about the post, or anything about IP’s, plus, I post from several IP’s and my address is only known by ONE person, and that person is not Slash (he likely has my old addresses from paypal transactions but I am NOT living at those places anymore). In fact the officer found me via my mail forward address, and I got to hear that he had to call off 2 other cars going to old addresses of mine.

While I appreciate the concern being tossed at me, I am a hermit, I am not social, and I would not post something like that if I did plan to harm myself.

Based on what I’ve read on AU since I woke up, thier IP tracking was tracking ANYONE looking at the blog, or posting to it, and I did make a post (I won’t claim what one, but it was before the suicidal note) so I’m sure my IP was mixed in there with everyone else bombarding them.

Sadly the only person out there that loves me, was the one on the phone with that cop. You don’t know my personal life, and never will, because I am a private person. All I will say, is I hope whoever posted that note is safe and well still.

I myself, will not be on tumblr after I finish up some posts here. I can’t stand the vileness that gets posted here, and I no longer wish to be part of the ‘Ay Tumbr” community because of it.

While I was on the phone with the cops, I had numerous people talking with me on skype and on Aywas… a lot of people were concerned for you sweetie, even if your not true friends with them… they were worried. I was freaking out, and I still am. You will always be one of my absolute best friends, you are my sister, and you are always welcome at my home.

I still hold up my offer.. I know RL is hard for you with the people around you, and I will always welcome you here with me and my family.. I really do hope to hear from you soon.. I miss you, and I love you.. I hope you see this..

I die

aywasunrated:

You win self professed vigilantes of aywas.

If you don’t see me online again it’s because the actions you took, the hurtful messages you sent, and the lies you threw over my name was too much.

I’m doing this Anon only because I don’t want anyone saying it’s for attention or a lie.

I die like I…

I’m pretty sure I know who wrote this… sweetie please.. just talk to me. You know I am always here for you, don’t let them get to you.. I know your having a really rough time right now.. but please.. it’ll get better..

And if I am mistaken and it isn’t you… then whoever wrote this, my inbox is always open, I am here to listen to anyone.. nobody should ever be made to feel that suicide is the only way out.. Everybody goes through hard times in their life, and sometimes you just need help getting through it.. so please.. just sit back and breath before you do something drasitc..

http://caffeinonymous.tumblr.com/post/83254083394/question-for-artists-in-general-but-more

caffeinonymous:

question for artists in general but more specifically the ones who make free PSDs for the eggs field, pumpkin patch, etc

would you be offended if someone edited your PSD to make a custom for themselves?

i’m asking because i rarely trade PSDs unless i have multiple uses of the same pet but…

I’m ok with being swapping things out as long as I get credit ;; I don’t like people taking credit for what I did, and as long as it doesn’t get sold

Disgusting

tobyana:

kaiyos:

tobyana:

kaiyos:

tobyana:

kaiyos:

aywasunrated:

I know people will most likely hate me for this but whatever. It really pisses me off that unless your name is Kaiyo, Tobyana, Eveglori or however you spell it or anyone affiliated with them you get shit on.

This is also supposed to be an adult site where people are supposed to have the maturity…

I… really don’t know what I did to upset you so much… I rarely ever get things thrown at me… if this is regarding my Yay I made a while ago I have had a rough few months and I have been trying to keep it all on the down low and only complaining when I need to let it out… I complained to one of my friends and I believe that she contacted my other friends and that is why I got all those wonderful items thrown at me.. I rarely ever recieve anon gifts, and when I do it always fills me with delight.. even if it is something as small as an “i <3 your art” sticker..

I am also one of the cheaper artists on the site.. I am constantly being told that I should charge more, but I don’t because I enjoy helping out users and making sure that they can get customs. I always accept items, bp and I am more than willing to make payment plans for people if they want a premade that I have made. I never charge money up front, but I will hold something for an extended period if they need.

So.. I really don’t know where you are getting your information from… literally nobody kisses my ass.. I am friends with just about everyone I talk to on site and I have never even been involved in any true negativity on site..  I am normally just hiding out in the background.. 

I am sorry if you feel that I charge too much for my premades or my commissions.. if you truly feel this way you are not required to buy from me.. it is always optional.. and if my premades don’t sell after a certain time I always drop the price..  

And regarding the other two, I don’t know Tobyana very well but I know Eveglori.. she is one of my best friends. Her and I met when I was a GCC artist about 2 years ago.. I got her prompt and ever since then we have talked daily. Eve is one of the sweetest women on this site, she may come off brash occasionally but it is just because she is being honest and not everybody wants honesty. 

So before you go slandering peoples names, please at least have evidence to back up your claims… I really.. don’t know what any of us did to make you hate us… 

Edit: And regarding your :”you people suck up to them like they care about yo” I actually /do/ care about them. Everyone who hires me for a commission becomes my friend.. even people I have never talked too.. if anyone PM’s me I will legit care about what their saying.. if people are having problems I try to help them out no matter what it is. 

Don’t take what they said personally kaiyo.  You are a sweetheart, and your work is beautiful.  Don’t let them get you down.

If it makes you feel any better, I”m pretty sure the bit about overcharging was directed at me ;p 

-hugs tightly- But your such a sweetheart ;O;  It just really bothered me last nigh, I’m feeling a lot better today.. it just.. idk why someone would pick on us 3.. You don’t really overcharge, your work is amazing, and people pay the prices… so idk.. most of their rant now that I reread it really makes very little sense

*shrugs*  I think sometimes I do, when I sell item rights.  But when there is a lot of demand for an item…  *shrugs*  I don’t feel bad about it.  I need the money.  I’ll take that hit willingly though.  I just wish they had singled me out for it, rather than making you feel crappy for it.  You’ve never overcharged, you always put your heart into your work, and you charge almost nothing. 

I can’t figure out why they would have targeted you, except maybe people giving you things?  But then, how is that something to rant about?  Except that maybe they are upset that they aren’t getting presents?  It makes me a little sick to my stomach that they are trying to make you feel guilty because people wanted to give you a gift.  And if I was one of the people who had sent you a gift *which, now I wish I HAD been one of those people*, I’d be PISSED that somebody was trashing you because I’d sent you something pretty. 

And eve…  I don’t know?  She’s always so nice, and its not like we see too much of her…  Just because she’s staff I guess?   *utterly confused*

But your really not over charging, your letting htem have rights.. so theyll be making a crazy profit off of the items anyways.

It’s an investment <3

thankyou so much for your kind words ;; The community here can be real assholes at times.. but there is definitely some amazing people around here who have helped to make me feel a lot better about this whole situation

I’m glad, I’d hate for one ass hole to drive you away. That would be a serious loss for the rest of us. Lol, I guess I’m selfish that way;p. I dunt want u to leave.

Awwww!! ;O; ilubby -clings-

Disgusting

tobyana:

kaiyos:

tobyana:

kaiyos:

aywasunrated:

I know people will most likely hate me for this but whatever. It really pisses me off that unless your name is Kaiyo, Tobyana, Eveglori or however you spell it or anyone affiliated with them you get shit on.

This is also supposed to be an adult site where people are supposed to have the maturity…

I… really don’t know what I did to upset you so much… I rarely ever get things thrown at me… if this is regarding my Yay I made a while ago I have had a rough few months and I have been trying to keep it all on the down low and only complaining when I need to let it out… I complained to one of my friends and I believe that she contacted my other friends and that is why I got all those wonderful items thrown at me.. I rarely ever recieve anon gifts, and when I do it always fills me with delight.. even if it is something as small as an “i <3 your art” sticker..

I am also one of the cheaper artists on the site.. I am constantly being told that I should charge more, but I don’t because I enjoy helping out users and making sure that they can get customs. I always accept items, bp and I am more than willing to make payment plans for people if they want a premade that I have made. I never charge money up front, but I will hold something for an extended period if they need.

So.. I really don’t know where you are getting your information from… literally nobody kisses my ass.. I am friends with just about everyone I talk to on site and I have never even been involved in any true negativity on site..  I am normally just hiding out in the background.. 

I am sorry if you feel that I charge too much for my premades or my commissions.. if you truly feel this way you are not required to buy from me.. it is always optional.. and if my premades don’t sell after a certain time I always drop the price..  

And regarding the other two, I don’t know Tobyana very well but I know Eveglori.. she is one of my best friends. Her and I met when I was a GCC artist about 2 years ago.. I got her prompt and ever since then we have talked daily. Eve is one of the sweetest women on this site, she may come off brash occasionally but it is just because she is being honest and not everybody wants honesty. 

So before you go slandering peoples names, please at least have evidence to back up your claims… I really.. don’t know what any of us did to make you hate us… 

Edit: And regarding your :”you people suck up to them like they care about yo” I actually /do/ care about them. Everyone who hires me for a commission becomes my friend.. even people I have never talked too.. if anyone PM’s me I will legit care about what their saying.. if people are having problems I try to help them out no matter what it is. 

Don’t take what they said personally kaiyo.  You are a sweetheart, and your work is beautiful.  Don’t let them get you down.

If it makes you feel any better, I”m pretty sure the bit about overcharging was directed at me ;p 

-hugs tightly- But your such a sweetheart ;O;  It just really bothered me last nigh, I’m feeling a lot better today.. it just.. idk why someone would pick on us 3.. You don’t really overcharge, your work is amazing, and people pay the prices… so idk.. most of their rant now that I reread it really makes very little sense

*shrugs*  I think sometimes I do, when I sell item rights.  But when there is a lot of demand for an item…  *shrugs*  I don’t feel bad about it.  I need the money.  I’ll take that hit willingly though.  I just wish they had singled me out for it, rather than making you feel crappy for it.  You’ve never overcharged, you always put your heart into your work, and you charge almost nothing. 

I can’t figure out why they would have targeted you, except maybe people giving you things?  But then, how is that something to rant about?  Except that maybe they are upset that they aren’t getting presents?  It makes me a little sick to my stomach that they are trying to make you feel guilty because people wanted to give you a gift.  And if I was one of the people who had sent you a gift *which, now I wish I HAD been one of those people*, I’d be PISSED that somebody was trashing you because I’d sent you something pretty. 

And eve…  I don’t know?  She’s always so nice, and its not like we see too much of her…  Just because she’s staff I guess?   *utterly confused*

But your really not over charging, your letting htem have rights.. so theyll be making a crazy profit off of the items anyways.

It’s an investment <3

thankyou so much for your kind words ;; The community here can be real assholes at times.. but there is definitely some amazing people around here who have helped to make me feel a lot better about this whole situation

Disgusting

tobyana:

kaiyos:

aywasunrated:

I know people will most likely hate me for this but whatever. It really pisses me off that unless your name is Kaiyo, Tobyana, Eveglori or however you spell it or anyone affiliated with them you get shit on.

This is also supposed to be an adult site where people are supposed to have the maturity…

I… really don’t know what I did to upset you so much… I rarely ever get things thrown at me… if this is regarding my Yay I made a while ago I have had a rough few months and I have been trying to keep it all on the down low and only complaining when I need to let it out… I complained to one of my friends and I believe that she contacted my other friends and that is why I got all those wonderful items thrown at me.. I rarely ever recieve anon gifts, and when I do it always fills me with delight.. even if it is something as small as an “i <3 your art” sticker..

I am also one of the cheaper artists on the site.. I am constantly being told that I should charge more, but I don’t because I enjoy helping out users and making sure that they can get customs. I always accept items, bp and I am more than willing to make payment plans for people if they want a premade that I have made. I never charge money up front, but I will hold something for an extended period if they need.

So.. I really don’t know where you are getting your information from… literally nobody kisses my ass.. I am friends with just about everyone I talk to on site and I have never even been involved in any true negativity on site..  I am normally just hiding out in the background.. 

I am sorry if you feel that I charge too much for my premades or my commissions.. if you truly feel this way you are not required to buy from me.. it is always optional.. and if my premades don’t sell after a certain time I always drop the price..  

And regarding the other two, I don’t know Tobyana very well but I know Eveglori.. she is one of my best friends. Her and I met when I was a GCC artist about 2 years ago.. I got her prompt and ever since then we have talked daily. Eve is one of the sweetest women on this site, she may come off brash occasionally but it is just because she is being honest and not everybody wants honesty. 

So before you go slandering peoples names, please at least have evidence to back up your claims… I really.. don’t know what any of us did to make you hate us… 

Edit: And regarding your :”you people suck up to them like they care about yo” I actually /do/ care about them. Everyone who hires me for a commission becomes my friend.. even people I have never talked too.. if anyone PM’s me I will legit care about what their saying.. if people are having problems I try to help them out no matter what it is. 

Don’t take what they said personally kaiyo.  You are a sweetheart, and your work is beautiful.  Don’t let them get you down.

If it makes you feel any better, I”m pretty sure the bit about overcharging was directed at me ;p 

-hugs tightly- But your such a sweetheart ;O;  It just really bothered me last nigh, I’m feeling a lot better today.. it just.. idk why someone would pick on us 3.. You don’t really overcharge, your work is amazing, and people pay the prices… so idk.. most of their rant now that I reread it really makes very little sense

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